Bit of Dichotomy here
All who know anything about me seem to understand that ferver and passion drives are fairly strong and seem to fuel my engines as well as nutrient from the table.
We all need reason-to-be, to keep on keepin’-on. Mostly, it’s family and loved ones which make life cohesive. Deeper and behind that might be ethos springing from predilections, life experiences and any assortment of desire and expectation. For each of us, by design — its different. We are all unique beings, similar, but not the same.
For me, well, I honor the pleasure principle; worship at the altar of beauty as manifested through creative endeavors (painting, sketching, adorning my surroundings with all the loveliness I could muster in decor, gardening including rose culture – even learning hair-dressing/styling – tho never becoming licensed, and of course — making my own clothes as mother always had when I was younger, before she taught me how to sew, measure, see, judge for myself). My preference is to be happy, to enjoy – in almost anything I do whether I’m researching some human frailty online or digging in the soil.
Some may recall that I was also a rather absurd ‘political junkie’ until last November when I turned into a basket case, going to bed in utter desolation. In order to recover/rebalance. . .I had to withdraw. Couldn’t deal with any part of it. No matter that more than 1/2 of America FELT betrayed by the outcome . . .they were! (as all now know) But it wasn’t Russia, that rankled me, for at the time, it was only rumor. It was the incredulity that a lying, cheating egomaniacal, unprincipled manipulator who seems not able to see any difference between truth and fabrication or reality and fairy tales. . . whose only concern is himself. It was not conceivable to me that the highest office in the land was to be occupied by such a poor representation of what is noble, admirable, ethical and high-minded as ALL others had been – for the most part. We were reared on delightful tales of honesty, struggle and over-coming – the stuff of inspiration and dreams. Not debauchery and so-called pussy-grabbing! That it happened is inconceivable to me. That it ‘stands’ is unacceptable to any with even a modicum of sensitivity. This man has met NO standards of measure to become our president, has not acquiesced to any of the customary rules of disclosure ALL OTHERS HAVE. Has no integrity whatsoever. He is dismantling our way of life and our government as if it were a matter of his choice. It isn’t! People have given their lives to uphold and sustain our way of life. It is imperfect, but it works for all of us – – or at,least – is meant to. We are still workin on it. Can no one see the horrible division He has created?. . pitting one against the other. History reminds us that that is how you destroy a nation.
Am I still distraught that he won? No. The facts are what they are. Do not understand how an ethical nation the whole world used to admire and look up to can let this stand. Because “pussy-grabbing” isn’t written down in a book of laws some where is no reason to allow such to become acceptable. Lying to the nation isn’t prosecutable? Whole bunch of sticky wickets here. One shouldn’t have to spell such stuff out – it’s vile and disgusting. He is vile and disgusting and remains a liar and IS untrustworthy. His word means nothing as it doesn’t even have a five minute shelf life! When are the “thinkers” in Washington going to gather some strength or balls to correct this travesty? When we or the world are completely destroyed? D’ya think it might be too late by then?
So no, this stuff IS still on my mind, and I wish it wasn’t. It’s not going to come out in the wash. . . action is demanded. We have a ‘rare occasion’ on our hands and it also demands some ‘Super-Rare’ solution. Make up some new- modern NEW RULES to fit the occasion. Obama created Global Agreements among the nations to protect and preserve the world – its our only home. The whole world knows it and gets it. But our current (temporary), name-only leader is destroying everything he finds — and that is his stated intension. Ya think Americans wanted to loose the tiny piece of the pie they have left? We are a thundering herd of sheep, reaching the cliff – what’s it gonna be?
Expression is my way of life. Not healthy to bottle it up. But I also agree with Abraham in the snippet below that came today – – against-ness is not the way to go, if one would be happy, joyous. . .living free. If I resent you — its not good for me, it comes back at me as an act of resistance on my part. When I manifest resistance. . .I block my own free-flow of the ‘good’ (or beautiful) I seek which amount to ‘allowing the blessing’ to enter our life. All an automatic thing based on natural laws of attraction, like attracts like. We aren’t lucky or unlucky – – life flows easily, responding to our thoughts, moods, how we feel. When you’re feeling good, happy – – kinda what you get more of. Being resentful, sad, depressed, down. . . well, that’s what we are putting out there (in a sense – asking for more of the same). Comes down to our own choice.
Would someone please inform the thinkers in Washington to find principled ways of correcting the time-bomb sitting in our midst with some old-fashioned logic and rightful thinking. One man is tinkering with the whole world as if it was his private toy. . . and it’s not. Many, many millions of us do care — as we should because we have all this gray matter which makes it so. Jan
You can’t take sides against anything. If you would just leave the “against” part out; if you would just be one who is for things – you would live happily ever after…
Excerpted from: North Los Angeles, CA on March 07, 2000
Esther (and Abraham and Jerry)